Friday, June 11, 2004
If u think that i am mad at you, lemme tell u tt i am not... All i needed was some space...All i needed was ur understanding to what i'm going thru... Why can't you see what i've been going thru? I dun mean to lose myself at you yesterday and the day before, but y aren't you giving me a chance to explain all tt? If you're mad at me, go ahead... I have always taken the blame for everything that happened and i will take it again... The broken relationship you had with him... I take the blame also ok? If tt'll really please you,i'll take it... Just do anything that pleases you ok? If u think u need me,then just find me...But i doubt tt'll happen again cos by now u must've hate me...So,what can i do right? Nothing i do seems to be right..It's all wrong...Haiz....
I'm losing myself again..Haiz...Budden,the sight of some people just make me smile from ear to ear.... Haiz....
crappypwincess HaD a MoOd sWinG @ 3:39:00 PM
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Friday, June 04, 2004
Haha! I realise sth..The previous post,i'm not sapose to stop there...haha! But then,now i can't remember what i wanna say... Never mind about tt...
Anyhow,yestd was total slack day...And plain boring...All me n him did was slack ard..I slacked till 5.15 then made my way home..He sent me and then i think he continued slacking till 10+..tts wad he said uh i think...
To aishah,welcome back beb..haha! aku tatau ape lagik nk ckp ngan ko...Aper yg perlu dicakap,sudah dicakap...haha! Enjoy ur holidays here then which involves tomorrow..*hint...hint*
To whoever else visiting my blog,have a nice day..Wahakz!~ Actually i dunno wad to say tts y...
Ouh yes,to nuraz....OI!!!!U OWE ME A STORY...Sorry lah yestd i didnt answer the fon..I chucked my fon somewer and didnt feel like hogging on the fon... But takkan u cannot sms me telling me the story kan??? Zengz tul...
Anyhow,im waiting for dad to buy me a fish tank..haha! I have this wierd liking for discus fish..they're soooo cute and adorable and colorful too..Haha!
Well,i've said enough...Peace outz ya'll...
crappypwincess HaD a MoOd sWinG @ 2:32:00 PM
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Thursday, June 03, 2004
I dunno y i been feeling restless lately...Been losing alot of blood too..Wahakz!~ Gosh,wad a way to lead my life..
Anyhow,aziza....HOW MANY TIMES MUST I TEACH U TO SPELL MY NAME???? Buddriah???Tts nt nice at all sia...u distorted my name..haha! It's either u put BADRIAH...or just plain BUDD..hahaha....yesh,i make a big fuss about my name...Cos it's MY NAME u see...Of course i'll make a fuss about it..hahaha! Well,i know tt u miss me...can't deny tt can u?? hahaha! Chill...
Life's been bored for me...Really bored sia...Nothing to do and nowhere to go... Everyday i yearn for someone to ask me out....Haha!Tts wad i've been doing these days.. Wait for an sms or a call...
Apart from tt,things have changed...My wonderful life has once turned upside down when that person i loved left me on the 'street' alone... I was lonely back then...I was really really lonely..I wanted to cry,but i smiled instead...Not wanting to let those tears out..No matter what i do,i never fail to put up tt smile of mine..Only i know if it's a fake smile or a real one...I was devastated...I didn't know what to do with my life anymore...Day and night i thought to myself..Why are you doing this to me? Is it because i never did understood u?Or isit because u no longer shine the light tt u used once did to me anymore? Then i thought again... Was it me or was it you who has changed drastically? Until now,i haven't got the answer.But i realised that i will never be able to find the answer..U usta make me smile to every werds u say...U usta make me smile each time i received a msg from u.But now?It's no longer tt way.. Each time ur name appears in my inbox,my heart beats faster and faster..Not because i'm more fond of u,but because i wonder what's the next critism's gonna be... I wonder how much more will i be hurt... Tts y my heart beats faster..At times,i didn't wanna open the msg, but i told myself..What happens if u need me? What happens if u needed someone to confide in.? Tts when i had the courage to eventually open the msg... I noe tt i am no longer the gerl next door tt u usta knoe,but why must we part till this far? Why so far apart? Did u realise tt the gap is tooooo huge? Each time i wana get to u i would FALL...I'd fall cos apparently i have to jump so high to get to u..But it's such a disgrace,i nvr managed to get to u...Each time i think of u,my heart bleeds...Bleed sooo much...Cos u haven't taken out the knife tt u had used to stab me straight thru my heart...I'm still waiting...Waiting for u to undo what u had done to me...
crappypwincess HaD a MoOd sWinG @ 11:14:00 AM
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