Sunday, October 01, 2006
Says wo i do not miss u? Says who i no longer love u..I still do..You said u know me well enough..So u should noe tt it is never easy for me to forget my loved ones..u especially..Although he is present in my life now, u r still there..he cant compare to u..he can never replace u,that i assure u..NEVER!
Stop saying that i will not feel the way you do..I do feel lost without you..But i know that nothing i say or do now u will believe..Cos ur mind has been poisoned by the thought of him appearin in my life now..But for once, please believe me when i say that i love u and miss u and would still wana be here for u..i still do..There is no way that i will desert someone like u..
I admit, e past few weeks has been hard on u..But do u know how i feel? I feel confused..Very confused..I m tryin to adapt to changes..Time is all i need..give me some time to adapt to certain things..Please...
Im sorry for all the hurt i have caused u..I really am...It's not tt i do not want to meet u just now..i do, but he just came just now...i duno how to say to him... i duno how to say to him tt i wana meet u..In my heart,i really do wana meet u..I really do..But i duno how to say to him..Likwise,i duno how to tel u tt i m with him..I just cant seem to be able to say about u to him and him to u..I really dunno..I dun wana hurt both parties with each other's names..But i m just hurting myself..
I duno how to say about him to u and u to him..Every single day he will ask me if i had text or call u..all i say is no..not tt i wana lie to him, but i cant possibly share every single thing with him..Especially about u..Not tt he minds, he does not at all..but i do not find it appropriate to share wad i talk to u about..wad we had,let it be between us only..and i hope u can do the same..i keep telling him tt i dun text u n dun call u,so i hope u wun tell him tt i still do text n call u..and likewise dun say tt u do text n call me..can? i hope we can do this together..i have my reasons for doing so..
once again,i apologise to u and i hope u can give me the time i need to adapt to all this..im so sorry to have hurt u so much when actually hurting u is the last thing i ever wana do...i m such a disgrace to myself...
~**For You are the reason i chose to live,And now i am the reason for wanting to leave.**~
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