Monday, October 31, 2005

I realised that it has been ages since i last updated this thang...Not tt i wasn't around.. I was.. In fact, i always drop by my own blog, but never had the chance to update it..Sorry for the inconvenience ya? Hmm..School is starting soon and i m like not prepared yet. Be it mentally or physically. Hmm... Today is my last day at work..Well,toodles to SIF...

Anyway,started on FYP already.. Group name? MZN3...I duno how to put the 3 as a cube after the N...Hmm..It's the initials of all our names..Coolness...But then, looks like i am sort of stuck at the financial considerations.. Deng.. Mentang lah aku nie auditor..Wahaha! But nvm..Should be able to get it done uh...

Right now i am in the midst of doing work actually, but it is almost done..I m actually slowing things down..I dun wana be doin so many things on my last day..Scared cannot finish by the time i goin home..So, i am just surfing around..I m bored now...

Lets see what i intend to do... Haha! Anywayz, preparations for raya was ok.. All done except for kuehs..Damn... Baju, kasut nd tudung all got ready.. Beg oso got already..Not i buy one,but the ppl in the office give me..Farewell present la kononnya...But,tanx..Heez... Cute uh the beg...But nvm...

Bought clothes for my siblings,but tinggal for my mum...Pity her... Will buy for her soon uh..Very soon..Thought of doin so tonight,but see how uh..She abis werk wad time seh...Haiz...

Ok,enough about tt..Now my life?Haiz.. I dunno wad to say...Been in deep thoughts lately.. What have i done to offend you ppl?WHAT? it would be an ease to my mind if u all say it straight to me.

To that someone, i have always known u to be someone who is straight forward, but what happened now? WHat are u hinting at?What are u unhappy abt? Why aren't you coming to me and telling me? Why? Like i text u yesterday, i wouldn't know until u tel me. Haiz.. I dun want wad we had to end just like tt... Worse still to end when i dunno what went wrong..Haiz...But if i had offended u in any way, i am taking this opportunity to seek ur forgiveness.. If what i had done is beyond ur forgiveness,then tel me what i have to do to get your forgiveness.. As i bow to u, i wish u can give me the forgiveness...And slamat hari raya to u in advance...But no matter what, do know that what we had for the many years is still fresh to my heart. It has not seep through thin air and i will assure u that it will never happen. We went through ups and downs together for many years and i still wana go through that with you. i admit, what had happened has hurt me terribly. I was shaken. i really was. But,wad can i say. It has already happened.
I remember, u were always there when everyone turned their back on me.. U were there wen i was going through the toughest part of life..U were there for me to hang on..U were there guiding me through..U were always there...I admit that time might have changes things, but i am and will always be thankful to have found a friend in you....May god bless you in your future life and may u be a successful person in the time to come...

For that other someone,u emailed me the other day... Not that i have not read it..I have.. In fact, it has been printed out for me to read over and over again.. And i will reply to tt mail of urs..Not in here, but i will give u my reply personally.. What happened between us was beyond our control..We didn't want it to happen, but it was already fate..By the time we realise, it was already too late to turn back.. From the day i knew you, we had this chemistry. When we went through the same path in life, there was more chemistry. U understood me and i,the same. Although at times it was hard to do, we stil tried.. We appear jovious and happy, but deep down inside,only we know. But what had happened has drifted us apart. It's like Hydrogen bein separated from oxygen. No more water for us to sail through this life together...Beb, i hope in time to come,things will change..Change for the better..I oso wana take this chance to seek forgiveness from your kind soul..U have always been forgiving and i am seeking tt from you..Seeking that from u for all that i had done and not done to u.. Im sorry beb and slamat hari raya to u.

~**For You are the reason i chose to live,And now i am the reason for wanting to leave.**~

crappypwincess HaD a MoOd sWinG @ 12:37:00 PM

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