Wednesday, March 30, 2005
Kulerai segala yang terkusut
Kusimpul agar menjadi rapi
Demi menjaga hatimu
Ku rela mengalah selalu
Mengapa kau berubah laku
Inikah yang harus ku terima
Di atas setia sekian lama
Kau menjadikan aku
Pelakon dalam sandiwaramu
Rinduku cintaku bukannya yang terkusut
Kuikat kubelai dan kusimpul..oohh...
Hati ingin berbicaraHati pun sering bertanyaDi mana hujung jalan ceritaBukannya di bibir tanpa sebarang noktahSelangkah engkau pergi seribu langkah aku mengejarmu
Sekelip mata engkau hilang seluruh pelusuk ku cari...oohh...
Setinggi mana engkau membawa diri akan aku daki...oohh...
Sedalam mana kau cuba menyembunyi kan ku selami
Biar tebukti biar bersaksi
Cinta kita cinta tersimpul rapi~**For You are the reason i chose to live,And now i am the reason for wanting to leave.**~
crappypwincess HaD a MoOd sWinG @ 2:00:00 PM
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Seribu Tahun Takkan MungkinDi mata mu mencermin kan rinduDi mata mu adalah kenyataanAku tenggelam dalam lautan kasih sayangmuTak mungkin akan ku lepaskan ikatan iniMendung hitam adalah semalamSilau mata dari kilauan cintaHati ku ini sayang tak mungkin berubahSelagi kau berpegang teguh pada janjiSetiap kata yang terucapSetiap nada yang terciptaHanyalah untuk muSatu tak terpisahSeribu tahun takkan mungkinBisa menghuraikan sebuahCinta yang kau beriUntuk diriku yang pilu~**For You are the reason i chose to live,And now i am the reason for wanting to leave.**~
crappypwincess HaD a MoOd sWinG @ 1:59:00 PM
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Kala kita bersamaDunia berseriManis ooo manisnyaCinta didada bersemiHari yang ku laluiIndah penuh maknaHati ini bernyanyiLagu tentang cinta( korus )Tapi kini kau pergiMembawa mimpi kuMeragut cinta kuMerobek angan kuSirna segalanyaMusnah semuanyaKu hanyut di kesepianHari berganti hariKu tetap sendiriNamun dihati iniCinta mu tetap bersemi~**For You are the reason i chose to live,And now i am the reason for wanting to leave.**~
crappypwincess HaD a MoOd sWinG @ 1:48:00 PM
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Hello...I been absent for quite some time but i m back right now... Sorry for the long absence and i dun think i wanna say why..Anyway,it's the holidays now..Exams are done and it ALL sucked... seriously,i slacked too much this sem... Really sia..Dunno why..Intentions to study was there,but i end up doin other things like sleep or slack around...Hmm...
Now that the holidays are here,i m going to die of boredom..Such boredom fills my life...Haiz...Anyway,i m in school right now...Killing time and also cos i got nothing better to do..
I really dunno wad else i should be writing in here...Ahakz....Till i come up with something,ya'll have a good day aight...
~**For You are the reason i chose to live,And now i am the reason for wanting to leave.**~
crappypwincess HaD a MoOd sWinG @ 1:20:00 PM
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Thursday, March 10, 2005
Had BIT girls lunch out yesterday...And i was late..As usual..I m oways the late one..Sorry gerls...I m so sorry... Was caught up uh..But had fun though..People that i usually only smile to was there... I was very surprised.. But we talked..As though we had known each other for a very long time..But finally after 4 semesters,we were all there...Haha!
I been lagging soooo much in school stuff...I dunno how many lessons i attended this week...I think this is my first lesson...Which is open tech...Didnt go for the lab on tuesday..So,my first lesson of the week..And my cds will be the last lesson of the week...
Today might be the last day im blogging..Will be gone..So,this is the last entry...
To that someone whom i was with yesterday..That very someone who always end up in the same boat with me... I want u to know,that wateva happens,i care for u..The care that i had for u had never fade away and it will never fade away..Though we had our bad times,our tough times,my care for u was never less... I will try n keep u updated of any news...U were there when i was done and u were also there wen i was up...And i love u for that my fren...
To that other someone who has manage to emerge into my heart..I wana seek ur forgiveness for all that i had done and had not done to u...I am so sorry...Please forgive me...But if there are things that u cannot forgive me about,tell me...Just punish me...I know i did many wrong to u..I know...I hurt u a million times in a million ways..I m truly sorry..I know sorry can't heal the fragile heart that i broke...But itu aje yg i mampu katakan...But please dun hesitate to punish me if u must...But there is something i want u to knoe...Since the day u came into my life,my world changed..My life changed...Suddenly ur presence has made a BIG impact in my life...I began to love u and as time pass by,i was afraid..Afraid of losing u...My love for u grow every second...It grows and grows and grows...I love u too much already...Never did i noe that in such a short time,u made me love u sooooo much...It just happens..All those happy moments we had together will remain as memories...U r my evevrything..Do noe tt...Im so sorry...
To all readers of my blog..This will be my very last entry..Dunno when the next entry will be..If u happen to read thru the past...then have fun...Enjoy life to the fullest and u wun regret it...
~**For You are the reason i chose to live,And now i am the reason for wanting to leave.**~
crappypwincess HaD a MoOd sWinG @ 11:36:00 AM
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Tuesday, March 08, 2005
In school..Was late.... And thank god i didn't come by a cab... Teacher is on mc... If i know i would've slept longer sia..N my neck hurts...I dunno why..So suddenly sia..I felt like i couldn't get up this morning sia..So heavy my head..Ok2...Suddenly my sentence structure became atrocious...Hmm...
Am missing somebody right now...I really am...Hmm...Every second the love grows..It just keeps growing and growing and growing..I love the person soooo much...I didn't regret having to meet such a wonderful person like u...I didn't regret bringing someone like u into my life..U gave me the light..Before u came,i was living in darkness..Noone was there to save me..Someone whom i wished would save me oso couldn't save me from that darkness...I was afraid...Afraid of being alone in the dark...Dark life..Anything was bound to happen...And YOU,whom i didn't expect to be there, were there to save me..To pick me up from falling...And i began to wonder why..Why u did that? Not tt i wasn't thankful about it,i still am, but who was i to u back then?Nobody...I was a somebody in someone else's life,but tt other someone didn't save me..Perhaps tt other someone didn't know that i was in darkness...Tt someone was living a happy life by then to know about my life..Baby,do know that i truly love u and would do anything for u....I will never ever take u for granted..I will never do tt to u..I miss u so much and i love u too much to let go...
To that other someone who was sms-ing me yesterday night,im truly sorry for all that i had done to u..I noe it hurts,bt i dun want us to end just like tt..And about what i told u yesterday,im so sorry for keeping it from u for a long time...I didn't noe how to let it out to u..I know u've had a hard time of late and i dun wana add on to it..But i guessed i had done so already... Im truly sorry..Please forgive me...This week,tts all...I duno if i can make it back...But wateva it is,i love u..And im truly sorry for all tt i had done...
~**For You are the reason i chose to live,And now i am the reason for wanting to leave.**~
crappypwincess HaD a MoOd sWinG @ 10:41:00 AM
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Monday, March 07, 2005
At Bedok cc now wit my dearest oyah..Accompanying her to apply for her school and stuff n also to kill time...Had a HUGE fight with dad yesterday and i dun think i wana talk about it...I was just super pissed at him..He called and started screaming at me...Supposed to go out with the family,but i end up going elsewhere..I dunno..Seems like i been drifting away from the family..Mebbe cos i ahven't been spending much time at home...Always been out...Always...and back late at night..Been having late nights...Haiz..I really am drifting from the family...I no longer noe wad goes around in the family..Perhaps should spend more time with them since time is getting shorter...But i also wanna spend time with that other someone..I miss that someone sooooo much....Am waiting to meet u...
Anyway,supposed to have my cds meeting today at 1....But i can't make it..I have sth up...SIP briefing today..But i ain't going too..I just didn't have the mood to step into school and furthermore...I m missing that someone badly..Even when i m with that person, i feel so far away...Haiz...
Anyway,accompanied naz to idah's place on sat...Naz needed to do her project..So,there we were...Wanted to sleep.but i can't..And i so dunno why..
Baby,i miss u soo much...I really am...Wanna spend the rest of the time with u...Haiz...Ooops...gtg..sis needs my help....Sorry to mus bab tk dpt attend the meeting today..Guess,there's other more impt thing to do n settle....
To nad,well..jgn ilang lama2 k?will meet u on wednesday at least..Join tauz...jgn tk join..salam to halwa...
~**For You are the reason i chose to live,And now i am the reason for wanting to leave.**~
crappypwincess HaD a MoOd sWinG @ 11:34:00 AM
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Wednesday, March 02, 2005
This is to the one who has written sth to me in te fella's blog... Gerl,i m truly sorry for neglecting u these days..I noe alot has happened between us,but i dun wana break this bond that we had created since day 1 of school...Someone who always end up in the same boat with me... I really am guilty for all that has happened... And i assure u that it will not happen again..I m always one call or sms away if u need me..PLEASE remember that..Perhaps,things around us changed...But i too duno how to say it..I duno what is the right thing to do and what is not right... Me n ur other fren seems to be drifting too...Been quite some time since i talked to him...U noe who he is... I duno why we seemed to be drifting when we're supposed to get well much better...Haiz...Once again,i m truly sorry for all that i had done to u,be it intentionally or unintentionally....Please forgive me...
To pinky..Haiz....I read ur blog entry...First and foremost,congrats on the 'o' level results... I'm sure many people is proud of u...Abt ur prob with ur frens,well..I m tryin hard to not get involved,but it looks like prolly,i have to step in...I dun want u to ruin ur many years of frenship just like that...It's hard to maintain frenship and lemme tell u that i nearly lost one... I nearly did and itsucked alot...It sucked o the core... I dun want u to feel that wa..Trust?Well,tell me,wad do u noe abt it....Hmm..... And btw,u said,u're outside my heart,but lemme tell u that u r stil inside...No doubts about that..No matter how much u hurt me,u r still in my heart...Haiz...
To that other someone..I noe it's not easy to accept this reality..It never was easy for me...I duno why i can encourage ppl,but not myself..I duno why..I really dun..Haiz...I can't seem to give myself some encouraging words...And i gave up..I gave up hope on everything...Haiz...I made u tear sooooo much..But i didnt intend to make u tear..It wasn't intentional...I dun wana leave...I really dun..But i gave up..Gave up looking for the right solution..I gave up..Haiz... U were and will alawys be my pillar of strength...I loved u too much to let go...But looks like i got to..Haiz...I can't even bring myself together to complete what i wana say to u.... :'(
~**For You are the reason i chose to live,And now i am the reason for wanting to leave.**~
crappypwincess HaD a MoOd sWinG @ 8:12:00 PM
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