Monday, February 21, 2005

So many things happened the past few days...Sad things i mean..
Firstly to my dear,i noe u wun read this cos u dun do tt...But in kes u read it one of these days to fill ur boredom,i wana tell u tt i m so sorry for all that has happened between us the past days.. It was bad..Really bad...It hurts..It really does..It hurt me so much,but i guess i was just being selfish..Being bold so as not to think of how u feel..I was really out of my mind..When i was sent out of the house,i teared...Teared so much till i cannot stop...I duno where i should go and what i should do..I was hungry,but my wallet was totally empty...U noe wer it all went right?Haiz...I really am so sorry about it..My biggest mistake was to have hurt u soooo deeply...I m so sorry once again... I should've understand u..But looks like i didn't..I broke ur heart with my actions..And went u walked away without saying a thing on saturday,i realised that i shouldn't let u walk away just like tt..I dun wana lose u..Not now,not ever...U have been my pillar of strength..My shoulder to cry on and i really love u for that..I am sorry... That was why i went after u..Although i was still hurt abt wad had happened,i really cannot be thinking of myself at that point of time..Either i go with my ego and lose u forever,or i forget abt my heart and win u back..And i hoped i had won u back..I really hope so..Altho we are back on the track we were before,i hope that i managed to win u back..I hope u wun leave me..It's not the time yet...I dun have tt long anyway..Please....I really really love u alot..Love u too much to let u go...
Although this heart of mine already broke,just ignore it..Dun think of how to mend it back..Like i said,it takes a long time to mend a broken heart,but it takes words to break a mended heart...My heart was back at one when i found u..It was..It broke too many times cause of some people..But i dunno how u managed to do it...How u managed to put it back in one piece...And tt is why i am afraid of losing someone like u..."i'l never break ur heart" ever again...Hope that the tears will make us closer in one way or another ok?I am so sorry once again..I still feel VERY VERY guilty..Please forgive me...I hope u would... We've made it this far and i dun wana let go just like tt.... "Barulah aku mengakur...cinta kita telah musnah..."
Anyway,i been sooo stressed up with all these projects deadline...I feel so dead already..Lack of sleep and i haven't been eating well..Haiz..Kena gastric yesterday and it was TERRIBLE... Haven't been taking care of my health tt much..
Today i was off to changi hospital this morning..Ayam met woth an accident yesterday and i was damn surprised with the news..It was bad..Seriously bad...He injured too many parts...But despite all the injuries and all the seriousness,he can still crack up some jokes to make us laugh...Wad a guy...It was a hit and run accident...Heard his skull had a hairline crack and his dunno wad at the leg putus..I pity him alot..His face all so bengkak sia...Hope u wud get well soon k...Will try and see u as often as i can at the hospital...Cheer up...Though the food in hospital sucks..Haha!Now u cannot smoke...Wahahahahhahaha! Ok2..Sorry....I was kidding...Get well soon bro..Salam from all my kakak2...

"Engkaulah lambang cinta..Karam tragika..Aku;ah dibahtera,cinta tragika..Barulah aku mengakur,cinta kita telah musnah........."



~**For You are the reason i chose to live,And now i am the reason for wanting to leave.**~

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