Friday, January 28, 2005
Boo! A very big hello to readers of my blog... Firstly,sorry for the long silence aight...Well,i noe i been silent lately oso... Ahakz! Been busy and all uh... Anywho, had my surgery last wednesday..It went well and therefore i m still here kicking and alive.. For those who didn't expect me to still be kicking, too bad...Looks like HE wants me to still haunt u.. Ahakz...
Anyway,just had my breakfast..I m so full now sia... All i had was one piece of prata...Haiyoz...
Yesterday was bad for me... Really bad...First the stitch hurts..Then,haiz...Wad a life.. Where was everyone when i needed someone?WHERE! Haiz.. Where was a shoulder when i really needed one? Haiz...
Apa salah aku sehingga kau memperdayakan ku? Apa dosa ku hingga kau mempermainkan hati kecilku ini? Sampainya hati mu melukai ku buat berjulang kalinya.. Hadirnya dirimu telah memberi ku kebahgiaan yg teramat sekali...Tetapi tegahnya dirimu melukaiku dgn cara mu itu..Kenapa?Kenapa kau harus mempermainkan perasaan ku? Why?Why? U've hurt me a million times,but i kept mum...I really did.. I didn't wanna blame u for all that has happened...I never will balme u too...But i dunno what's wrong this time...Why my heart not able to accept u back.. Accept u and place u at where u used to be... Im so sorry angel,but looks like u no longer own tt spot in my heart... U've misused ur position in my heart... I placed u in a very fragile and secured palce in my heart,but u've misused it..U've misused my trust too..
I dun blame u for all tt u did... I never will,but it hurts me so much that i cannot do anything...My heart controls it all..One thing for sure...Do remember and do noe that i have never and will never regret the time i loved u... I never did....
~**For You are the reason i chose to live,And now i am the reason for wanting to leave.**~
crappypwincess HaD a MoOd sWinG @ 10:58:00 AM
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Saturday, January 15, 2005
First and foremost, HAPPY BELATED BDAE to aishah who turned 20 on the 14th of January 2005.. Finally legal in the clan huh? Well,may you have a great life ahead...I noe it's waiting for u ahead...Make ur way up to get it aight? We have known each other for a long time and u have done alot tt i cannot repay..Not say i cannot,but i duno how..May this bond which we created long ago lasts till eternity although we duno wat'll happen in the years to come...
Next, to tt someone... U told me yesterday tt u wanted to run away from ppl... I wun stop u...Go...Go ahead... Quoted from a movie "Run away from all troubles and run towards ur happiness".. Go ahead and run if u feel that u will be heading towards ur happiness...But if u think tt u wanna run from trouble just for the sake of running,lemme tell u tt u better not..Cos if u run for the sake of running,it'll bring u nowhere..Instead all that u ran away from will eventually return and haunt u more.. And the feeling is gonna be worse i tell u... So much more worse than it is now..But that doesn't mean u can do wad u did yestd..Not say i scoldin u or wad..It has happened already and it's ur choice. But gerl,i m here to remind u that wad u did does not solve all that u r running away from..It doesn't..Tapi,like i said...it's ur choice..U can choose wad u want and wad u dun wanna do. No matter wad,i will always be here... *winks*
Hmm.... Now abt me.. Well,wad can i say? Been having lack of sleep lately... So cannot sleep... Troubled mind leads to a troubled heart which will lead to a troubled soul causing no sleep.... So wad can i do?No matter how heavy these eyes of mine are,it just wun close...I cannot bring it to close... Each time i do so, tears flow... Tearing to sleep every nite is not an interesting thing to do..It never was and never will be..
~**For You are the reason i chose to live,And now i am the reason for wanting to leave.**~
crappypwincess HaD a MoOd sWinG @ 1:33:00 PM
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Wednesday, January 05, 2005
"Sepi, di landa resah..Hati makin gelisah"
I am HUNGRY!!!!! I'm still in school...Supposed to be doin my opentech,but i gave up.. I really cannot get any output and it is soooo pissing me off...So,i gave up on tt...
To artika,tho u wun read this,but i just wanna wish ya a happy belated bdae... May u have the greatest life ahead...
Met nadirah this morning...Got back my ring and bracelet... Yiipeee...!I didnt remember abt the bracelet at all sia...But tanx yah....
actually i duno wad else to say..will say more wen i noe wad to say...toodles....
~**For You are the reason i chose to live,And now i am the reason for wanting to leave.**~
crappypwincess HaD a MoOd sWinG @ 7:28:00 PM
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Tuesday, January 04, 2005
Dawn to dusk and dusk to dawn.All i did was sat there in pain.Eyes full of tears,heart full of sadness.My heart broke again.It's not once,not twice.I lost count already. What have i done wrong to u?Wad did i do to u till u do this to me?Do i really deserve this?Maybe i do,but maybe i dun.For all tt has happened,i do not blame u.I have never and will never blame u in any way.Trust me my dear.Haiz...
To the other someone,im so sorry to have made u feel the way u did.I told u i had no intentions of doin so and let out wad u had told me to.Apparently it brought fear to u.Fear tt i myself can never imagine.It hurts me seeing those tears in ur eyes.I wanted to cry,but still kept tt smile up. Who knows my smile can stop those tears of urs from rolling down ur cheeks.I wanted to hug u,but sth stopped me. I really cannot bear to see u in tears.It just hurts me so much.But i really hate myself for bringing those tears to u.Sometimes,some things can never be changed. What has happened has happened..No way we can turn back the hands of time. But please,if anything were to happen,help me keep to tt promise tt i ask u to make.If u think tt the promise is too much for u,then tell me..Tell me before it's too late my dear.I really dun wana burden u to things tt u can't do.
Anywho,saposed to be doin my opentech,but i can't...My mind is so not with me...I really cannot concentrate to a single thing.Am saposed to be replying to some ppl's mails,but like i said.My mind ain't with me...I really can't think of what to say. Haitz....
To tt someone,if u noe who u are...Werdup with u these days?U seemed off..But like i said to u earlier if u need someone to talk to,i am only one sms away... Chill beb...Term test is round the corner...Do concentrate on school k?
~**For You are the reason i chose to live,And now i am the reason for wanting to leave.**~
crappypwincess HaD a MoOd sWinG @ 4:33:00 PM
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